Welcome to The "Opus"

I swear I will post updates when I have another day off.....Uggg, like that will ever happen!!!

Must Apologize to much stuff going on at the moment to put to long of a post in tonight due to...

...Ummm... ...Well......reasons that shall
remain nameles at this point and time, But when I get a few moments to jot down what else I have been up to I'll get people up to speed on the goings on out here...

Till next drink...Time

Jason

The past few days have given me thought, well mainly because in the past 48 hours (yet again) I have only had a few hours of sleep....even know, I'm tired and I worked last night and I work tonight and I maybe had a 15 minute cat nap when I came home this morning before Sebastian woke up...and now I'm up again thinking odd thoughts and trying to stay focused (odd being, why am I putting myself through this, and when will it end, you know weird shit) but last night I had something happen to me that kind of made me think about how I push myself to limits that I can no longer maintain...

I was helping a new person on the floor last night, and when I say "helping" I was actually doing this retards work for her. Well I was "helping" one lady with a recent hip surgery and was lifting her up off her bed when she lost her balance and started to fall so I did the natural reaction and held her weight up so she wouldn't hit the floor. Next thing I know, I hear that famous wet crunch from the left knee. I had all this heavy ass weight on the bad bum knee and with some feet of strength I know not where it came from I just picked her up fully and tossed her to her wheelchair like she was a rag doll. I proceeded to hop out of her room and the nurse just looked at me an was about to send me to the E.R. (Icky) so I just looked him deadpan in the face and reset my own knee, yea trying to act tough but had to go out for some fresh air...and bawled my ass off. 

So what else happened in my life up to this point well my curse of bad luck just seems to follow me everywhere I go....the knee thing last night. Joey gets paid today, she calls me with good news that her check is bigger than we thought then I get another call back a few hours later with her telling me that the Geo now has a flat and we need to get a new tire for it...Great ain't life just peachy keen? well I get my first paycheck tonight so we will see how bad my luck is...Ha!

Time to see if the lil one will lay down with me on the couch and take a nap so that I can get at least a few hours of sleep before I have to medicate myself and work in the blood and guts tonight.

why cant the weekend get here sooner?

Good Morning....ummmmm, Afternoon.....awwww hell these days are running themselves together and I'm just about a puddle of goo trying to keep up with everything!

Uggg well last night (this morning) I decided to get my schedule for the next month so I went to work....yea...my only day off in a while and what do I do with it? go to work? Ehh...I truly need to get a life. But I found out that I do get this weekend off and I'll be able to spend it with my brother- in-law Robert...Not to sure if I mentioned that he was coming down from Utah (ick, I hate that place...bunch of rotten mormons, but thats another posting for another day when I'm up to the ranting and raving) 

I guess he met some chick online and she lives in a small ass town out here in Arizona, in fact, its only a few hours from my home (okay...so I google mapped it and its 3 hours and 45 minutes from my house). anyways they have been talking to each other for a while (like a few weeks im guessing) and now he's telling us that he is in love (again) and is now going to be moving out to this small ass town to be with her and that they are going to get married in about a years time (somthing about Internet love...makes me wonder if it aint the downfall of humanity)  I think were going to get stone cold F.U.B.A.R.'d this weekend, hell I need to do something to just forget a few days of my life...forget my name and maybe blank out a few days here and there.

Errrr...whatever

At least someone from the family is going to be moving a lil closer, even if it is for an odd reason and to a small ass town.

Ehhh...quick entry tonight, been up for like 31 hours and this is only my second day off since i started back with my company. so I'm trying to enjoy it, and trying to stay awake for the familys sake...tried the loud music thing but the sandman is creeping his fingers in on my vision of awakeness. and it didn't help that my Boss kept calling me with scheduling changes, then she tells me that we have a "Very" important meeting tomorrow morning...yeah, like at this point and time I don't have anything better to do with my life than worry about issues with procedures at work...oh well I guess I'll have to miss that one

Time to wrap this one up for now and go sit and watch a movie with the family.

(and try to stay awake for it at least)

NIghters all...

One tired Son of a Bitch

Okay, so I'm not asleep like I should be doing...So I figured that this Post would be dedicated to my sister like I promised I would do.

Here ya go Amanda, Mandi, Amandavisor, Whatever your calling yourself this week...



...And by the way He-man could take She-ra out in a heartbeat!

Okay...so its been a few days since I've posted anything that anyone would read, so now I have a few worthwhile days to catch up on

I need to get this issue off my chest and for those that know me...know what I'm talking about, for those that don't, read on you'll see what I'm talking about...

I have been accused of being a good natured person, and that I have a big heart, and with that, I have helped my share of friends through hard times and bad where I could if not money wise help someone then I would whip up a meal for everyone, or would even go as far as giving the shirt off my back to some. Well with that said, the other day a friend of mine (well the mother of the kids that have been staying with us for the past few weeks) told me just that I'm "A kind soul...and I let some people walk over me and just let them...I need to be a little more aggressive with some things..."  and yea I do admit that things in that aspect are bad and I do let some people walk over me, but last night I found out how bad some people do just that...For those who have kept up on reading this thing...(and that in of itself would amaze me)...know that for the past few weeks we have let into our home the 13 year old teen daughter from our friend and then on the weekends we get the 15 year old teen son...to...(help?) out round the house and watch my lil one while I get some rest from working the grave year shift. 

First they do nothing but sit on the computer all day or sit on my PS2 and play games (not even watching my lil one).  When there not doing that they are stuffing faces with my food...and this is where I get into the fact that I'm getting walked all over because the mother told us that when she got paid, she would help us out with the food and go to the store and buy some dinner stuff for us, and some snack stuff for their kids well their payday came and went and poof there is no money to help us out, but there was plenty to get food put up in their place...I was even told by the 15 year old that they stuffed the freezer with meat and veggies! and here I sit with them digging into things that I bought for Sebastian to snack on and drink for the day leaving him with nothing!...so...last night we got a call from the Mother of these two human garbage disposals and she says that her son called and told her that he's hungry and there is no food in the house and were getting the riot act about what were going to do to feed him...and we ask for a bit of help...line was quiet...and topic was changed...so we press the issue further and get a "...well we can help with like 20 bucks..."

...

Okay now I'm supposedly good natured and all that happy fun shit, but when these extra mouths to feed are taking away from my own sons plate and now I'm getting shafted for it...Its time to tell some people to "FUCK OFF!"  and in not so nice a way.

Second...they are here to help us clean up around the house...(now, I have been a teen once in my life so I know how hard it is to pick up after oneself)...but when they are asked to help with , say, the dishes, or to vacuum the house and I look around this place and its a freaking pig sty...I just cant help but wonder what the hell these people do with their free time at home? and I went to work last night fuming like hell with this...and since I got back on this shift me and Joey now have opposing schedules and don't get to talk much anymore, so who was I to vent my frustrations to and just have someone to talk with? The Idiots at work (hell the weekend crew is just a bunch of monkeys that received there certs from a box of cereal!)

I guess I have you all who read this for a little bit of comfort. and I know its not the best writing, but hey it's all this lil brain can cook up after the hell I went throught last night at work (Damn psych patients!)

Bonjour mes amis...

Jason

And I live through the first week of work with out so much a scratch...just a lot of emotional scars and now seemed to develop a nervous tick in my left eye.... As everyone knows of my last posting I was shitting bricks about the nurse that I was slotted to work with these past few days...thinking I was to be working with Nurse "Jesus wants you!", Well it turns out that I wasn't the only one that she decided to go loco on, and she was shot out the door and told never to darken the place again (thanks to the powers that be) They do something right every now and then...

The nurse that I was to work the rest of the week came in when I was out trying to find my fortune in other aspects of the medical field, and people told me that he was one of the best to work with, he has even worked as a Director of Nursing at a few places. and monday night was my first night to test the waters, He has been a nurse for a few years and this guy is a complete turn around from the nut job I worked with the other day, I spent that first night in stitches...laughing my ass of, and the night flew by. In only a few hours span we were working like clockwork.

I have had the pleasure of working with a handful of nurses that were the tops in their field and this guy was the shit, and he never had a doubt in his mind about my past experience and talents. I guess him and my boss talked about me and what I have done in the medical field before I started back with them. and my boss must have talked me up to this glorious medical person and had some kind of talent to heal (I'm good...just not that good) 

I just wish they were all like that...one night me and him were at the nurses station talking about life in general and it was time to do my rounds, so I get to this one ladies room and she looked like absolute dog shit...and something told me to start her worked up and found out that her O2 Sats had dropped to very dangerous levels (Ill spare all who know not a thing about medicine, that's a very, very bad thing) and hauled ass to get the nurse...told him what was up and we ran back to her room with her looking about as blue as something you would find in a box of crayola crayons, or as we in the medical field call (Smurfing out)...A lack of air to breath. so we started to work on her and finally got her back to tolerable levels and brought her Sats up...that showed this nurse that I wasn't just some run of the mill aide, anyway, the shift finally was over and we all went home to crash. The very next day (last night to be exact...and as a sidenote you will find that I used to post about my day to day life, and now with the switch to graveyard shift these postings will start to blend together, days are nights, nights are days and I am fretfully starting to lose my grip on what day it truly is) We found out that the nurse that relieved us was an absolute tool and must have won her nursing license from a scratch and win ticket, the lady that just about bought the farm that night, went back to Smurf status only a half hour after we left...and this nurse didn't know what to do...she didn't even know how to dial 911!!!!!

Sometimes...I just wish some people would slide off the face of the earth.

In this week I have worked with the worst and the best, and it had its ups and downs, fast times, and slow. So it was not to bad as far as work weeks go and I'm getting only one day off in two weeks time (...Yeah, whoopie for me...), So hopefully there will be enough of me "mentally" to write about my life and my job.

One thing that is helping is the fact that Callie (our friends 13 year old daughter) is staying with us again to help out with the lil one till this weekend so I can get some sleep during the day and watch him while I get the things finalized for Sebastian to start school which is in about three weeks time...damn he is getting older fast

I'm going to cut this off for this evening, It's my only night off for a while and I think I'm going to just vedge out and watch a lil T.V. and try not to do to much that requires any form of reasonable thought

Nighters all

Jason

To start this...I need to clear my head or else I'm going to drive myself fucking ape, barmy, batty, berserk, bonkers, cracked, crazed, cuckoo, daft, delirious, demented, deranged, dingy, dippy, erratic, flaky, flipped, flipped out, freaked out, fruity, haywire, idiotic, insane, kooky, lunatic, mad, maniacal, mental, moonstruck, nuts, nutty, potty, psycho, screw loose, screwball, screwy, silly, touched, unbalanced, unglued, unhinged, unzipped, wacky, wacko...and pardon the future curses in this post

But shit...if last night didn't come outta left field!

I had my first day back at my old job the other day in the Rehab Skilled Nursing Center and it truly felt like I never left...People were wondering what happened to me, staff was telling me that they missed my humorous attitude, and I even had a few patients who I was caring for before I left...remember me, and told me that they missed my charming bedside manner and good attitude (obviously they were on some form of heavy sedation). But the night was good and went off without a hitch and it was even a fast night...nothing went wrong...nobody died and everyone was in an all around good mood.

That leads me to today...Second day back on the job...and it started out pretty good, well as good as to be expected and it was the old crew I used to work with (found out last night that my all time favorite nurse quit...shit...but oh well we move on) and we had a new nurse on the LTC side of the floor, she seemed okay at first (Got a funny twitch that told me to watch this one...but being the idiot that I was last night...I ignored it) She's from Boston so we had some stuff to talk about, told her about all my sisters back east and the back story on that...and she tells me that if I want my nursing career to skyrocket and explode, I should go to Boston and get my training out there. so off I went back to my side of the floor and there was a buzz with all the other nurse aides to keep clear from the new nurse and whatnot...I thought it was just bitchy behavior that you get when you have a floor full of females (and believe me being a male in a female dominated field, it can get a little odd) So I just chalked it up to the usual psychobabble and went about my day...then about and hour and a half before my shift ended I decided to go out for a smoke and get some fresh air (having only rained last night...I needed the cleansing breather) and me and the night shift security guard got into talking about life and the universe in general...here comes the Nurse I mentioned earlier to have her pre-dawn smoke and being the only people out there, she swaggered over to us and struck up a conversation...

This is where I feel like I got hit by a Big Ass, Wet Bag of What The Fuck...

Not to sure how the topic got turned to it but in passing I just mentioned that I was Buddhist by nature and this nurse went on a Rant and rave the likes only seen in drug addled psychopathic skitzophrenic fanatics...and started to lay into me and the security guard about being a devout christian then about how abraham and something about Isaiah...and being brothers, sons, or something on that line and now they fight their battles on holy ground and that shes writing a book about her conversation with god (Yea...like gods going to take the time to talk to a lowly nurse type person) and how she was on the operating table last year and had an angel or god himself talk to her when she died on the operation table and that she was now his voice and he spoke through her....

...by this time I was wondering if the security guard had access to a tazer or something...

Then she went on a tangent about parallel life's and mentioned that god showed her 3 numbers that was something along those life's...this is the point when she started to get in my face and wave her arms wildly...and how those numbers (3, 7, and 11) would be relevant in peoples life and also it had something to do with alcoholics, druggies skitzos, and some other stuff but I just wanted to run...far, and fast...then she proceeded telling me that god was everywhere and when were spirits in the eternal pit or whatever that we cant feel and that god chose the angles to feel and how were the chosen yada yada yada...and then the rest was about accepting Jesus into my life and if I do that god will flow through me like it is in her and that when she speaks, its god that talks to me...now she was standing on the bench where we were sitting, going off and near yelling at me and this guard...she started to hit the table with her fist and got this crazed look in her eye like if you gave here a bomb and switch...she would off herself in the name of whatever she was ranting about...and just when we thought that this sermon (or whatever the hell you call it) was over, she started in on how when she was born, her daddy said that she had a golden light around her, and that she was born at the Beth Israel hospital (the same place name where Jesus was born, and how angles used to talk to her when she was growing up...and that she had people who could confirm all of this...(Great just what I needed...Loonies who say that Loonies are sane!)

After all this I went back up to my floor and I felt like I just got hit by a two ton bag of shit...the rest of the shift I couldn't get that  gawd damn crap outta my head...and I could not focus on my job so I had one of the other nurses help me finish up with the patients that needed care then I just sat at the desk not wanting to do shit till I could clock out and get my ass home.

Now in my life...I love a good heated debate about alot of things, politics, economic trials of 3rd world countries, and yes even religion at times and I like to think I'm fairly intelligent at most things I put my mind to...but there have been only a few (and only a few) times I was just plain struck stupid in my life...this was one of those times where I was just stuck on retard for a while...

Now I sit here at home after all is said and done looking at my bed and knowing full well that I need the sleep but, I just cant seem to calm down (And I seemed to develop a twitch in my left eye!)...and no amount of Slayer or Cradle of Filth gets that crazed look she had outta my skull, so I think I am just going to sit and watch a good bloody movie to get calmed down then hit the hay

Signing off for today...

Jason

Shit I hope she dont work tonight!

Last night sucked...I didnt get to sleep till the road crew stoped work at about 7 this morning...Grrrrrrrrrr, Oh well at least people in this house let me sleep.

Well only a few hours till my first day back to my old job...Kinda nervous and anxious, and not to sure what to expect, yea its a job that is easy to me, and I can just jump back in with both feet. But then there is the staff there that I just didnt get along with whan I was fist employed there, but then I think about it...and you know what Fuck em'  

So Ill post tomorrow and fill everyone in on the gruesome details of what happened...

Till next time

Jason